Hot and Dangerous

the only reason why i'm blogging is because... I PON SCHOOL! HEHEHEHE!

i'mma bad influence, but nyeh, who cares! anyway, lifes been good to me, cause i'm only looking at the brightsides. i changed class 2 times, and i'm starting to adapt to the new surroundings. its fun here in tj, i really didn't expect it, and after weighing the pros and cons i think this is the only school i'd rather be in. i'm looking forward to everyday in school, cause its ALWAYS full of surprises. the people there are awesome, okay, rephrase, my friends there are awesome. they are really damn friendly even if i dunno them. then can smile and play and prank around. and well, i've got my own entertainment;) so i'm happy(:< DIG, FCG and (one more i haven't found a shortform to) yeah, and i love how my networking is really quite wide, like the world suddenly seem THAT MUCH smaller, and everyone i know is interconnected. plus i'm loving badminton trainings, even though its hell, but i really want to push myself and be the fittest ever, so BRING IT ON MUSCLEACHES! and i'm quite sure i'm in touchrugby too. i'm probably giving up my hc dream, cause i can't balance badminton, touchrugby, cheer and housecomm. its really quite sad that i have to give up some cause i really want all and i really know i can do everysingle one. but i don't want to retain. so i think i'll take badminton and touchrug, its already my dream to be able to do my two favourite sports in the world. and these chances and opportunities don't come often. so i'm learning to be satisfied that i can do these two, that i'm already an exception. BLOODY OPPORTUNITY COST):<

as you can see, theres really been too much things happening since jc started. week one of school was topsy turvy. really some rollercoaster. week 2 was still so chaotic. but i gained some balance. and happiness level was up-ing(: week3 was probably one of the happiest weeks, cause i met so many of my friends in one week. and i stayed in contact with the one that means alot, even if its just an sms, its good enough for me(:



weekends are the hardest for me to deal with. i'm always with my family and thats the problem. if the siblings don't play or we aren't eating. i'll be stucked with myself. but it was damn funny yesterday when me, my bro and my sis were stucked in one bed playing, fighting, screaming, laughing over the stupidest things(: haha! good times(: i'm going to miss my sis when she goes to sydney to work/study. shes leaving on the 12th, same day i leave for kl on my badminton camp): WHAT HORRIBLE TIMINGS!

but i'm really looking forward to the kl trip, the last time i went there in sec2 i changed alot. and well, seeing where i am now, change is good for me(: kellie, did you remember how we were roomates? haha, good old times playing scissors paper stone over 3 1.5litres of 100plus. and all the times we crash jo and yan's room to illegally play bridge and simon says(EPIC) and the knocking of the wall. damn funny(: i miss us.



yeah, i think its cause i've been spending too much time with myself that i look at all the old photos, remember ancient memories. i'm losing everyone to australia):

anyway, jc really teaches me to treasure my friends. i can't forge the kind of relationship/friendship i have, nothing can replace what i have, so can't take it for granted.

oh and guys with itouch/iphone, DOWNLOAD HIGH NOON! its this cowboy shooting game thats damn fun and awesome(: and add me as a friend so we can DUEL! WOOHOO:D

i won't be blogging here often, for several reasons, one big one is cause the desktop is a pain in the ass to on. i'll update twitter quite frequently, but most of the time it will be filled with random lyrics(: hehheh! and well, go find otherways to catch up with me(: HAHAHA!



i'm such an ass(:




Tonight you won’t be by your self-self
Just leave your problems on the shelf-shelf
You won’t wanna be nowhere else-else
So let’s go, so let’s go

We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright

Throw our hands in the air
Pretty girls everywhere
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright

wait, so in the end, which is harder?

holding on or letting go?

The hardest part of ending is starting again

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I want to do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

this week has been LINKIN PARK WEEK! hahahah! i think i'm quite retarded, last few weeks was click five and goodcharlotte. like i'll just play all their albums(: i wonder what happened to boy bands.

cny has been retarded, tj's one was really quite hmm? HAHA! heng, got my friends to keep me awake, otherwise i would have died of boredom.

my own family's cny has been okay i guess? but my maternal side lost its feeling. its just, not there anymore. it used to be woohoo and everything, like i'll really rush my parents and shout at them to get there. i was excited this year, cause it was the first proper cny since. and it just really doesn't feel the same anymore. theres just so little people who come back when you left. and its disgusting, its sad and pathetic. i mean, just because there isn't the core doesn't mean you don't come back, we're still a fucking family for God's sake.

cny didn't bring back any good memories at all. i felt so broken and angry. and it was hard to keep a smile through the entire day. even collecting angbaos didn't make me feel any better. and the lost in blackjack made things worse): I WAS WINNING OKAY! URGH! THE DEALERS LUCK DAMN GOOD, HE CAN BANLUCK 3 TIMES A ROW AND 21POINTS ALOT OF TIMES IN A ROW. but yeah, urgh.

i mean, it wasn't so terrible, cause what was left of us was happy. everyone was happy to see one another again. and the food was really AWESOME(Y) yummy(: its these kinda food that makes you feel happy even though it makes you ten times fatter>:D

ehh... i dunno what to blog about already, anyway, happy chinese new year people(: hope you get loads of angbaos!





7 more days.
Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it, forget it let it all disappear

Its not over till its over.

realised i haven't blogged in a longlong while! okay, so i got into tj.
and this week was really epic cause of jo+yan's farewell party + amreetaa's birthday chalet.

really damn awesome luh everything. but its all gonna change now. and i'm just trying very hard to look on the brightside for everything. yesyes, i got tj, laugh, cause i'm going to look like a tree. happy? yeah, laugh laugh laugh.

but true luh, tj everywhere green green one. heh! anyway, i plan to join touch rugby or rockclimbing. more of touchrug though. sorry theresa): i lazy to continue badminton! SORRY): go tell michelle luh! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH! sorry, inside joke. sorry. okay!

so yeah, i building my hopes for tj. trying to push the littlest things together to make it a whole lot better. in any case, i hope all my friends are happy with their jcs and that we'll all meet up real soon(:






The end is where you hope you never say
"I could have done it better"
I'm gonna keeps what counts
& throw away what doesn't really matter
& I wanna die
On the highest high