-rushed to my place to do the rest(SUPER FAIL) :D
-went to school for prom:)
-supper at serangoon macs
-stayover at amreetaas
sat-came home from sleepover at amros:D
-went to parkway, met varsha, L4D2>:D
-walked to eastcoast and lepak w ani, tammie, shar, varsha(:
sun-actsii session:D:D:D
-nex w rachel,mavis,jesslyn,christian:)
-hougang with r and j
-dinner with parents(:
mon-arcade+lan with eunice and darsh
-rapunzel with amreetaa
-stayover at shars(:(:(:
tues-simpang breakfast
-CRASH
-shoot(:
wed-personaltastemarathon
-fetch ugly(:
-surprise ugly!
-PARTY! hehe(: pokerpokerpoker!
thurs-mirna's chalet(:
-taboo:D, eateateat(i love mockmeat), contact>:)
-NIGHT CYCLING
-lepak at breakwaters of pasirispark, talk alotalot(:
-cycle to tamp macs at 2am, laugh ALOTALOT:D
-return to chalet for movie at 5.30
fri-woke up at 9am, toss and turn till 10!
-AWESOME BREAKFAST!
-left chalet):
-talk at whitesands macs>:D
okay, so thats my past week since i came back, hate to elaborate cause theres just so much. i've got like 2000 photos from aussie and i still haven uploaded it yet. shit man): but yeah, my week was fantastic, just like the past few weeks and months and stuff(: i love it all man! HAPPYHAPPYTIMES!
anyway, i really enjoyed the chalet at mirna's, it made me feel as though i was on a holiday somewhere myself. super relax. and even though my mood was like fuck at first, it changed as the hours past, and what seemed like hell became paradise for me cause of these people(: they make me so happy! thanks amro, badi, gee, tanya, sther, arch, char and esp mirna! we may not exactly share all our problems, but the fun we have clears away everything and every trouble. this happiness is contagious.
anyway, its christmas eve. and i've realised alot. i dunno, did alot of thinking during the chalet. i'm sorry if you guys felt as though i wasn't there. but yeah, i was screwed up inside. but i'm better now. i'm always better. i've realised the true extent as to: no one cares if you're miserable. its true. so true. so i've given up on misery and pain. i'm going to throw it all away, everything, cause its not worth the hurting. i hate it, i hate misery. it makes you feel so lonely. even when you're not alone. but i guess its time i learn to stop all of this self guilt. i've had enough of it all. i'm sick and tired of telling myself that i could have done more, that its not the end. cause it is. its the end. and i've just got to await the beginning. i've finally given up on waiting. waiting for ppl to change, cause they never will.
so i'm just going to go my own way, i'm going to clear myself of my past. cause it is the past. and i believe He forgives every filthy thing in my life. that i'm cleared whenever i say i'm sorry. and my camp really hit the jackpot, "Purity in the Spirit" its only when you recognise, try to change, become sorry, know whats wrong, that you become pure in Him. and thats when you can truly be happy. when you can live with yourself and everything thats you. when you can love yourself.
i know i'm a little early, but i know what my goal for 2011 is. infact, its my goal in life, to be
Forever Happy.
